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Consider -or taking all outside points to make a decision. Defined as something complete in an incomplete fashion; consideration evokes an imagery of a more thoughtful social deliberation. It can also be used more as a directive -a polite, light thinking -about a topic that may mostly be important in the context of academia -something that you can take a short amount of time to answer in a timely manner, yet deep enough to return to at a later thesis. Philosophers are a dying breed. Scholars are far and few -those who care about the craft, not what the benefits of teaching said craft. What the craft produces is a beautiful labor in [considerateness] love.  

Meditate or meditation is, of course, quite the inner-endeavor. However, with this it requires a more action-oriented thought: self-discipline. It’s difficult to think of nothing for long amounts of time in a life that is so determined to force a culture of rush [urgency…] and self-centeredness as opposed to a life of centeredness of self to an environment of haste. Meditation is a life style borne from this response of self-centeredness except that it enforces that self-centeredness as an insidious escapism. Meditation helps the self in the situation/s rather than to the situation by which those who ‘reach Enlightenment’ have preserved the tradition of keeping the esoteric benefits to themselves while capitalizing on the process.
Now, to address the verb than its noun counterpartner in crime: to meditate is the opposite of thinking. It’s not ‘to not think’ rather ‘making oneself not think anything.’ There’s a difference since, again, it requires more discipline to make oneself not think than to not think naturally. To not think is a low form and an unawareness of what transpires, while to make oneself not think is an exercise of being aware of all the distractions yet still achieve a state of tranquility. Prayerful meditation, therefore, is not focused on oneself but a higher being, I state, unable to keep the noun from my fingers. You’re welcome.

Continuing.

Ruminate for some reason when I see hear and use this I think of food. Simmering and stewing in your own thoughts.That is all. …Except…really, the common denominator for thinking is stomach: ‘-ate.’ There are no coincidences; all words come to be for a reason. Illuminati confirmed. It’s fun to make everything relATE even when it has no real bearing on life. Whew! That out of the way ~

Cogitate because of toothpaste, I can seldom not think about this as such. Also, confusing myself with a negatively positive statement, I thought about rewording but then, as with most of my decisions regarding self-editing, I keep it in plus commentary for my own amusement. Honestly: thought vomit. Co -together and gitate -as in upsetting (upsetting together ~these thoughts running together, this process resulting in the aforementioned thought vomit.) Resuming.

Mull over –I like to think of this as all my thoughts in a cart that I pull over the situation. It evokes dragging where you’re thinking about something but also stretching out time so you can think of a better way to get out of something or get something out of such a situation. For me, it has a bit of a negative nuance where in making what should be the simple/right choice, you indecisively think about it whether or not you intend on wasting time.

Weigh up. Up. Has such a positive weight to me, that it certainly colors my bias at the moment. Therefore, I view it on a higher level than mull-over but still awkward-ish to use.   

Justify. Much like reason yet slides more into ‘magical’ thinking. It’s a defensive offense, slightly higher than ~belief~ but only when justification isn’t used as an excuse to continue shite gaslighting. Whereas people believe justify is remotely close in the sense of (to) justice that they don’t want to be critiqued or even critically think about what [or how] it is they are justifying their actions…it is almost as though justify represents an action/s that is the person ~and even if so, can still be changed! But…since there’s no desire to change. Justify. Enough said.

Believe (*believe àfeel, consider, deem, judge, agree, suppose, assume, imagine, sense, reflect) **While from believe on down it is even more passive -it even begins to have more of a feminine connotation and thus is more negatively viewed. Passive is one thing but oh to be weighed down with emotions! Yet, as I may or may not have stated, these do interconnect/overlap** and so to not repeat a word unless I come up with a new descriptor, I shall refrain from repetition. I mean that because believe has its own set, I will continue with ‘think’ and not the words associated with believe. That can be open for discussion at a subsequent date…if I can remember. If I feel like it.

Feel is what I do often. In fact, words, apart, despite (…) have essences not simply definitions for over time, its meaning changes or it dies. Words are fascinating for characteristically speaking, it acts as a physical entity even though it has no physical form*. Feel or intuition are an important aspect of words as it is the more connectional aspect ~ determines what is used in culture: akkkademia had long since alienated the peons from the privileged. So to bridge the gap…must require its own segment. Carrying on.

Doubt. With power comes responsibility. This responsibility is doubt. While useful, even healthy, it too, falls under ‘think’ if only for the amount of exercise it compels the ‘thinker’ to go through. It compels one to enter gymnastics of Olympiad proportions in some cases. It’s not truly something to win, but something to behold. If not in abject horror. Doubt is something some people refuse so hard to do -fights with such vigor against having even any ounce of doubt that they are looked down upon with pity -held contemptuously, perhaps rightfully so depending on your level of tolerance or patience at this point. Most likely because doubt weighs substantially more than skepticism. Skepticism, I had not forgotten about, but I declined to include because I was going to use only one antonym.

I have much to discuss, but nothing to talk about. I don’t even know what or how I even wish to begin my next letter. And yes, these chapters are letters. ~The more you know. ~